Dresses done and Invitations to think of.

I have had a very lucky score on the wedding front by finding the girls flower girl dresses in one of the last places I would look. I'd been investigating some online but was worried without seeing them myself first.

Jodie was in Best and Less in Gero looking for a dress for Tayla and sent me a text of 2 dresses they had there which would be perfect. As you can see, Cassidy's dress has the gold sash belt which pretty much is the same shade as the gold of my dress. The embroidered flowers all over match the flowers on Devon's dress, which is in black and white. As the wedding party will be dressed in black, gold, cream and white, they'll both match perfectly.

The total of the dresses was $63.00 and Jodie sent them the day she bought them, so I had them 2 days later. Good old Australia Post. So a major part of the girls preparation is done now. I will need to get tights, hairpieces, shoes and cardigans, depending on the weather, which will be easy enough done next year.

I've been starting to think about my invitations too, as I want to start on them in the new year. I already have some gold edged RSVP cards to include and some shell picture cards to use for decoration, so I am going to start planning how to put the program together. Yes, I said program! I'm including the invitation, the wishing well poem, the list of accommodation and the RSVP card and envelope, so I decided to put it all together in a mini booklet. It will look tidier than sending 4 separate items in one envelope. I also have some little tidbits to include, such as the fact that we're not allowed to use confetti or flower petals at the ceremony (public area) and also I got the idea from The Knot website that I could do a little list of my something old, something new, etc for people to know.

I have already ordered some address stickers online as I'm running out of my current ones, so I just made sure they were in the colours of gold and white and I'll use them for my RSVP cards too. It was only $14.95 for 140, so they were only 10c each, not bad.

My friend Andrea (who got married in Broome in July) has offered to help me make them, so now it's just a matter of buying some flash A4 card and designing the layout. Lucky for me I have a printer of my own to use. I want them to be inexpensive but not look it, so we'll see. Luckily in Port Hedland, The Emporium carry a lot of paper supplies and metallic envelopes and the like, so I should be able to get supplies no worries.

So things are bobbling along. In a lot of ways I wish the wedding was sooner so I could get more stuff sorted, but I know I should stop wishing my life away! TTFN.

The Wedding Dress post. Just one, I promise.

Okay. I am going to write this now and then not mention it again. I myself am OVER hearing myself talk about it, let alone think and stress about it, so this blog is the place to vent and tell all, then leave it be.

On the Friday I arrived in Perth, Ani and I went straight to Legends Bridal in Joondalup for me to try on wedding dresses. I was stressing about this due to having a limited time frame in which to buy a dress and also because I didn't want to have to come back the next day to keep going.

Ani and I were so excited, especially considering Ani already had her bridal gown and was only helping me! We got chatting to the lady who offered us help, Lisa, who was magnificent and she said to start choosing what we were interested in and she'd put them in a changeroom.

I'll admit I was a little disappointed that there were other people in the shop with noisy kids running around that didn't give this special occasion for me any of the respect it deserves; however, I shall move on. Without saying anything about fat wog girls trying on dresses that were way too small. Ahem.

I had to wear a thin piece of cotton over my face when putting the dresses on so I didn't get any makeup on them, which was funny. The first dress was a champagne coloured strapless number that laced up in back. Ani and Lisa immediately liked it but I was very unsure. I didn't particularly want a strapless dress but decided to try it for the fit and colour. I pretty much was saying no while they were saying yes as I felt I was all bust and that I was going to fall out of the top of it. So on with the next few and some I didn't even bother coming out to show Ani as they just weren't what I wanted or didn't fit properly. I started getting a bit nervous internally as I was running out of dresses already in my size, even though Lisa had gone off to grab some others in the meantime.

Then, suddenly, I tried on the princess dress and knew as soon as Lisa started doing it up that it was perfect. I'd grabbed it to try on even though it was $1440 as it was just the style I liked. (My budget was for $500 although Shane had set it at $1000.) Lisa did it up and said it was a size too big and I needed the next one down but I came out to show Ani and we all immediately agreed it was a great dress, and likely to be 'The One'. I was very pleasantly surprised that white looked so nice on me as I thought I was too pale. (Now here I mention that getting some Hedland sun has NOT worked for me as yesterday I got a mole cut off and it fucking hurts, so a spray tan will be the go, if at all.)

What do you think? Nice huh? Now for the killer. I know I set a budget and that it shouldn't matter if you just LOVE a dress but the problem with this little number is that it was about 4 inches too long. And I knew I would not be wearing massively high heels at my own wedding because I wanted to enjoy the day and not be in pain. And because the lace overlay (the doily part) was so intricate and hemmed about the bottom, it would have needed a professional dressmaker to alter it and would have cost over $500. Debbie was the dressmaker/tailor at the shop and she would have done this for me, increasing the cost of the dress to $1950. Added to that is the fact that I would have had to return to Perth to get the dress fitted again before the wedding once the alterations had been done. Now on the day I thought that this might have been impossible, although Shane has since assured me it would have been okay, and workable. It had cost me $360 to fly down this time and I was lucky to get that so cheap; I would have been unlikely to pay less than $500 to fly down again in the future, let alone the trouble of getting Mum to have a day off to watch the girls during the week and Shane managing them over the weekend, which involved a lot of prepping beforehand by me!

So I started to sweat, thinking that my beautiful dress was going to cost me in the realm of about $2500. And beautiful as it was, I knew deep down inside that although I would look great and love it on the day, come the next day I would be stuck with an extremely expensive dress that I might be lucky to get $200 bucks for. The common-sense part of my brain started to take over the dress-loving part of my brain... And the winner? Try on more dresses.

I continued with a couple and then referred to an electric blue bridesmaids gown we'd picked out. I'd seen this on the website and loved it, especially as it only cost $330 and in my still-in-hedland, not-yet-seen-any-white-dresses frame of mind, it was perfectly what I wanted. So I put this gown on and Wow! We had another freakout; it looked so nice on me. I needed to have some of the cleavage stitched over as I showed a bit too much, but you could see this would be easily done and the colour looked amazing on me. But not bridal enough. The next decision was, white? Or gold? I tried on both and Lisa and Ani decided gold was the one. I wasn't convinced either way but apparently the gold looked better with my colouring.

As you can see in the background of the photo, there is a cupboard of tiaras, feathers, combs, hats and whatnots to choose from and next to that a big array of veils. We immediately found an elbow-length veil that was gold with a silver wave along the bottom (matching my beach theme) and Lisa attached it with a little tiara. I hated this immediately as I was looking for something different, like a flower or little hat. Ani and I sussed it out and found in a box a bamboo and ribbon fascinator coloured gold and black. We put this to one side of where the veil was attached at my crown and VOILA! The look was complete.

The dress had to be ordered in my size and colour so I won't get that til Xmas and I brought the veil, $190 and fascinator, $60, home with me on the plane. And the next day I was lucky enough to find the most gorgeous black long-sleeved Alannah Hill cardigan with embroidered flowers on it that would be perfect to give me the warmth I would need over the dress during the after-ceremony, before-reception travels and whatnot. Let alone the fact that this cardigan is so gorgeous I would live in it otherwise, $200 bucks or not.

Now all I need it a black pair of shoes (and I have heaps of them) and my outfit is done. So far I am at $799 for my 4 purchases and am really happy with them. Well I was until I got home and suffered an agonising few days of indecision and whether I'd done the right thing. I was torn up inside, had a good cry and decided to forget about it til tomorrow. The next day, I rang Legends and was told, changing my mind or not, the gold dress was mine and I could order the other but my deposit could not be changed over. And that made my mind up for me. There. Enough.

My sister is excited about my decision as this means her bridesmaids dress can be black. Then all we need is a black waistcoat for the best man and a gold one for Shane and the wedding party is done. Black and gold doesn't really go with my beach theme but my colours are gold (sand) and blue (sea) so at least the golds will match. Plus I think the room would POP a bit more with blue accents throughout the white tablecloths and gold sashes and whatnot, rather than black which could look a bit dank. Hmm, not sure. It's hard as I can't organise centrepieces and things from afar, this is something I'll need to do in Geraldton at a later date.

Anyway, this is my dress journey. I am glad to share it. I have been told by a few people that I will only get married once and I need to get the dress I love, but I know myself too well and I think I would regret spending so much money on one thing, when that much would go towards so many other items that would make our wedding day so special. TTFN.

Lights, Camera - Supermodel!

Now. I'm a mum and a housewife. This involves not showering every day, which then follows with not using my toner and moisturiser every day. This involves not washing my hair every day. Unless it's Thursday and I'm meeting mum for lunch, then doing my food shopping, I usually tie my hair back, rinse my face with water and off I go, washing, folding, wiping and mopping. Or typing!


So as you can tell, I'm very slack with my skincare routine. Especially at night, I hate having to wash my face at night before I go to bed, I'd rather shower and freshen up all over, especially with the back pain I've been dealing with; the hot water helps. And I never really thought my skin suffered too much for it, apart from being a bit oily. But on the weekend, in Perth shopping for my wedding dress, Ani took me to the Bobbi Brown counter at Myers in the city for a makeup trial. And the wonderful woman Casey who served us, informed me of my yellow undertones (who knew, I thought I was pink girl) and the dehydration around my eyes causing the blue bags. FYI: I am now moisturising my eyes and corners twice a day.


Ani has seen Casey before and was impressed with her knowledge, so we were glad to get her to help us. And help us she did! She spent over an hour with me, knowing that Ani was helping me with my wedding makeup on the day. She discussed my makeup habits, my dress colour, hair style and all sorts, finding out all about me and as she applied everything step by step, she explained what she was doing and why. She even gave us a little booklet showing the steps and let Ani make notes, so we could refer back to it later.

The main lifesaver was the Bobbi Brown corrector in bisque. It went on over my dark circles and blended perfectly. It didn't look like I was wearing anything and didn't sink into the lines under my eyes either, really nice stuff! I don't even know how much it cost, but Ani and I both bought some! Then concealer, then a light dusting of powder all over. This set my face with a base to work on, so Casey could add the colour.

Next came liquid foundation, powder, bronzer (which I've never been brave enough to wear, I always thought I was too pale) and blush (again, something I never bothered with). This gave me really nice colouring, subtle but enough to show up in the wedding photos.

I wanted dramatic eyes, so next came darkening my eyebrows to frame my face and beautiful eye makeup with lashings of mascara. She used shades of gold and stone and a chocalatey brown fine eyeliner on the upper and lower lid. Was very fiddly but wow, what a great effect. Surprising the whole look tied together with a light pinky lip colour and I looked stunning. All day walking around I kept catching sight of myself in a mirror in a shop and doing double takes - check me out!

Casey wrote down all the details, prices and colours for me so Ani and I will investigate cheaper options or online shopping to buy most of the products. I had to leave Ani some dosh to get the products I'd ordered once they arrive and when I get them, I'm putting them away in the wedding crate! Nothing is getting used between now and then, except the fantastic bisque corrector! Oh well. Back to normal life. I'm off to bring in the washing... it's a housewife's life, but somebody beautiful's got to do it! TTFN.

Wedding Progress Report - commence!

I am absolutely so excited I just had to write a little update.

I rang Jo at the African Reef Resort last Thursday to go over some details for the wedding, as Shane and I have decided to change the venue. The restaurant in the hotel was going to be the place, although it posed a lot of problems with where to put tables and decoration as it's an awkward shaped room.

We've now decided to move over to the Southgate Room, a separate room in the facility which is really spacious (we now have a guest list of 67 people), and also doesn't pose any problems with decorating. Because the restaurant is used the day before and after, we'd have to set it up on the wedding morning and then rush to clean the place up immediately afterwards. It would be very rushed as well as trying to get ready and I don't want to ask anyone to do that for us or pay a wedding organiser, who charges $50 an hour. In the Southgate Room, we can set up the day or two before and clean up the next day, rather than having to have it done on the spot for breakfast the next morning.

Jo was on her day off, so I ended up writing her a big email with all my questions about the room attached and left her to reply at her own convenience. I've eagerly checked my email every day and lo and behold, this morning there was my reply. I nervously opened it and nearly jumped with joy! Jo is so casual and her first comment was being so pleased about us wanting the extra room for dancing as that always makes for a fun party!

She basically has agreed and easily answered all my questions and even supplied a photo of the room so I could get an idea of the decor. When I saw it in June, it was being decorated for a wedding that Monday and had the white drapes hanging everywhere, chair covers and was really flash, so I wanted to see the room in its boringness. Jo mainly suggested the chair covers would be essential, and looking at the chairs I can see why; they're pretty ugly. But then made my day by saying the Resort is looking at purchasing some for ongoing use, so they might get those over the next 11 months for us to use! Yay!

Also included in the room hire of $800 is the staff, all tablecloths and skirting for bridal, cake and present tables, equipment for dance floor, lights, MC lectern and projector (hmmm!). One great thing is that I asked about a separate area for the kids so we can set up a DVD player. She said that outside the room is a lounge area with a TV and DVD player, and this can be set up for the kids including colouring books and crayons! How good is that? I have about 14 kids under 10 so its important for me to have an area they can run amok in, especially as I'm thinking of hiring someone from my sisters daycare to 'babysit' kids for the night.

She also gave me ideas of how many tables fit in the room and people per table, so I can finalise my seating plan (yes, I'd already started one knowing we were moving over to this room).

I feel super organised. I've spent the last couple of days on EBay and have bought my disposable wedding cameras, invite programs, guest cards and some gorgeous hair accessories for Cassidy. Jodie is checking out shells and starfish for my centrepieces and I ordered my bridal underwear yesterday too.

Adding to this joy is the fact that I spoke to the wedding dress shop yesterday and the dress fitter Debbie. She assured me that even with my large bust size (which was posing a problem for buying a dress off the rack), I shouldn't have any problem with buying a dress from their store. They go up to size 26 and I only need to get the bottom half of the dress altered about a month out from the wedding. This will be especially helpful as I soon intend to get off my butt and start walking again so I'm hoping my baby weight will FALL off with hardly any effort, heh heh.

Wow, I'm so ecstatic. Things are just falling into place for me and good timing too. I have so much going on, and therefore going on in my head, I was starting to get depressed and sick to boot. I lay awake for at least an hour in the middle of the night, running over things I have to do. It's getting a bit better now our holiday and trip to Broome is done, but we're going camping this weekend, so I have to starting packing and organising AGAIN today and tomorrow.

But I do feel so much better and hopefully this will reflect through to my health soon. All I need now is a few good nights sleep (yes Devon) and I'll be back to my old self. Shane will be so pleased! TTFN for now my friends, I hope you're pleased for me too!

Rich Colours in Art.

I'm not into art by any means, but I definitely appreciate beautiful pictures when I see them. One of things I have realised about myself, doing research for my wedding and dresses and so on, is that I love vintage and shabby chic. I love faded bronze and gold, rich colours and how stylish and timeless they are. If I could do my wedding vintage I definitely would, with old style birdcages hanging from the ceiling, antique jewellery and crockery and hats and knotted ties for the men. Vintage style is so tasteful. TTFN.

Location, Location, Location...

My wedding ceremony location - the Queens Park Theatre Amphitheatre. Beautiful. I fell in love with it as soon as I saw it. We'll have some carpet on the dias and some topiary trees or something to cordon the area off. And I'll walk down the centre steps between my gathered guests. Nice huh?!

You know, I'm actually finding it quite hard being an 'engaged' person. I haven't been blurting it out and shouting it from the rooftops at all; I seem to go quite shy and quiet (I know! Me?!) at the chance of saying anything and just expect everyone to notice this new ring I'm wearing.

I think I'm feeling self conscious about my ring, because although I LOVE it, I've had a few funny responses from people. Instead of looking at it and going OH it's gorgeous or OH it's so nice and being polite, I get, OH okay. Or just Oh. Maybe if they were paying for it, I would get something so stunning and huge that I'd have bruises on my knuckles from dragging my hand on the ground all day, from the pure weight of it. Why can't people just be polite, admire and be nice rather than make a face?

I've always told everybody that I've never believed in spending thousands and thousands on a wedding and that I'd rather elope to Vegas and get married by an Elvis impersonator. Or the real Elvis if he's free that night. But now that I'm actually in the stages of planning my own, I can totally understand how easy it is to spend so much money on making the day just right.

Shane and I have chosen a local Geraldton restaurant and resort as our reception venue and we had 2 areas to choose from. One is the Southgate room which is regularly used for weddings and it has it's own bar and dancefloor as well as access to an outside smoking area. The other is the restaurant area which is a sandy coloured bricked area with a waist high wall and large windows overlooking the ocean. It adjoins a separate serving area for food and a bar. The difference between hiring the 2 is $150. I chose the restaurant area because the Southgate room requires quite elaborate decorating, such as chair covers ($5 each chair for 60+ people), wall coverings (up to $60 each), table decorations (anywhere upto $100 easy), let alone flowers and table runners. And place settings? Placecards? Don't even go there. So as much as the separate room would make more sense, it would blow out our cost dramatically.

My sister introduced me to the joys of Ebay, which I had joined but never used, and I've already found a myriad of things to use. Such as shells. I thought I could sprinkle some beach shells on each table around a candle for decorations. Goes with the beach theme and colour I've chosen. So I found 2 bulk lots of little seashells for sale, one for $11 and $14. I missed out on both of them but thought, never mind, got heaps of time yet. Then bugger me, but I got 3 small bags of shells at Thingz for $9.00 the lot! Insane, I thought Ebay was meant to be cheap!

My main problem though is talking about this wedding. I mean, it's my wedding for crap's sake! I can tell Shane and my Mum are so sick of hearing about it and now a couple of my friends are acting the same as well. But the thing is, yes, I have a year to go, but who am I meant to discuss things with and talk them through with? Year or no, I still have a lot of decisions to make and things to organise, especially regarding the stress of my dress. I have a day and a half to get it. If I don't find it, I'm stuffed. I mean, I'd end up having to get an evening gown and quite frankly, I don't want to. I've got my heart set on an actual wedding dress because I'm only going to do this once so I want to actually look beautiful and have everyone looking at me. And coz I want to knock Shane's eyes out of his head!

So I have some planning ahead to do regarding the shop I'll be visiting on the afternoon I arrive in Perth, as the dressmaker wants to talk to me before I arrive on the day. Talk about stress! It'll be 9 months early, but better than nothing. Thank God for Ani whom I'm staying with while I'm there, she is one of the main people being patient with me about all this. Probably because she's getting married soon too, so she knows what it's like!

So you know what I'm gonna do? I'm gonna put it on here. I'll vent and worry and stress and discuss to my blog, so not only will my stalkers be able to see how I'm thinking but hopefully I'll work out some knots as well! Nice! Now, to go and sell EVERYTHING I own on Ebay to make some more money...those chair covers are a must!! TTFN!!

And so it begins...

Shane and I have been together for over four years, this time, and one thing I have always said to him, well, nagged him about, was that I would eventually like to get married. I was always quite traditional and had it in mind from when I was young that I would like to be married before I had children. However I fell pregnant with Cassidy straight away once we started trying, so there went that plan! And we didn't really have the money to do a shotgun wedding at the time. And we probably weren't in the place in our relationship to do it at that time anyway, baby or no baby.

Over the years, I've left jewellery catalogues in his underwear drawer, on the kitchen bench and in his workbag, so Shane knew what I wanted and what the eventual outcome of this relationship would be. In fact, it was one of the things that we agreed upon early on. And when we did talk about ourselves now and then, we'd discuss our wedding and where it could be held, what we'd like, etc. Our dream was to elope to Las Vegas and be married by an Elvis impersonator. Seriously, I would have done it. But having 2 kids and not saving enough wasn't helping that plan much.

But the proposal never come. I don't actually know what Shane was waiting for, although he'd mentioned a few times about not having the money to buy the ring I wanted. I found this ridiculous mind you, as I'm not a big jewellery person and thought that anything over $1,000 was too much to spend on a ring. I also think that spending heaps of dosh on a wedding is a waste of money, especially as we already have a home and 2 kids. We are currently saving for a deposit on a house for when we move to Geraldton, so that's our nmber 1 in the financial department. I decided I'd be happy with $5,000 or $6,000 for a wedding and reception, which is about what my brother and sister did with theirs. Something simple and not at all extravagant.

So recently, I got thinking about marriage again. After Devon's birth, I am struck anew with having to explain to Doctors, Child Health nurses, etc, that my name isn't McLean as hers is, mine is different, she has her daddys name. Which isn't mine. And I don't like it.

As we were going on holiday, I approached Shane with the idea that we go to a registry office while we were away, in Albany or Perth or somewhere, and just get hitched. Like that. Nice and simple and easily done to show our level of commitment to each other. I was willing to forgo the whole white dress and wedding planning stress to have a simple ceremony for us. But my plans went awry, as although Shane was fine with the idea, he said that if he didn't invite his mother, she'd kill him. I thought he was joking at first. But he wasn't. We couldn't get married without inviting his Mum. Which means we couldn't get married without inviting everybody. EVERY BODY. In our whole families. Coz we started to realise who would get pissed if Cheryl was going and they weren't, so we'd have to include them, which means we'd have to include the other one, and that one from over there and the ones we hardly ever see but who are direct relatives and who are more interested in the piss up. Sigh. Once I went through a quick checklist of who would HAVE to be invited, we had nearly 50 people. Geez. Once I added all our friends, I had 62. Crap.

From there, it was easily decided that we should have a ceremony in Geraldton, as neither of us wanted to be married in Hedland, and also Geraldton is quite central to our huge family stretching from Hedland to Albany. As we were only a month away from leaving, the decision of when was also easily made as we just 'booked' it for our holiday in June next year. This was doubly smart as our holiday to Phuket next September could then double as our honeymoon. Heh.

I went and had a look at rings by myself and found that we don't have a huge range up here, but it didn't matter. As per above money issues, I wasn't in the mood for a square princess cut high set thing like I always thought I wanted. What I tried on were wedders, usually they would go with the aforementioned big spangling thing, but they suited my hand so much and looked quite dainty. I loved them. A few weeks later, I dragged Shane to the shops one Thursday night and fell in love with a wedder that had 7 diamonds in a channel (7 is my lucky number!). Within 2o minutes, we'd picked a matching plain gold wedding band and a matching band for Shane as well. Done. All for the low price of about $1300. So off to it's home in Shane's sock drawer it went. Noice.

One night we were sitting around watching TV and Shane said, 'I'm getting nervous about how I'm going to ask you to marry me.' and I said 'Ha ha, you just did!' So he said, 'So will you? Will you marry me?' and I just looked at him and said Yes, and we smiled. We chatted on for a bit and then he went and got the ring from it's hiding place (where I'd been trying not to look at it). He knelt down in front of me sitting on the lounge, then knelt with 2 knees coz it hurt and asked me again, then put the ring on. It was very sweet and very us, coz then we cuddled for ages still watching the telly!

Now, the announcement. As we were going to see a lot of my family, I decided to make Save The Date cards and give them out to our intended guests as my announcement, so this was done with most people. Mel and Justine in Bunbury got theirs at the same time, but Mel yelled out 'She's getting married!' while Justine was still opening hers and gave her the shock of her life! With my sister Jodie, who was the first person I was telling, I said, 'Now Jodie, I know we only just had Devon a few months ago, but I've got something to tell you...' And she looked at me, and I yelled 'Shane and I are getting married!' and I have to tell you she looked very relieved!

One awful thing though, that I totally didn't expect, was the reaction of some of the family I have who weren't invited. I have a very large number of cousins, a lot... a LOT. So I have only invited one and her husband and child. Sharon is the eldest grandchild and I am the 2nd eldest, so we are quite close and I went to her wedding (to Shane, ha ha) in 1998. However, when I told a lot of my cousins about our engagement, most of them followed their congratulations with 'Oh great, I'll be able to save up to come to your wedding!' or 'I missed Wayne and Jodie's weddings, so now I'll be able to come to yours!' and so on. I was devastated. I felt awful and didn't say anything at first, because how could I say to people that we couldn't afford to invite everybody I was ever related to? And especially as I hadn't seen some of them for over 5 years? They don't make the effort to see my Grandma and she lives in the same town!

By the time I got to Perth, when another fav cousin said she'd like to come, I couldn't help it and said I was sorry but unfortunately financially we were on a strict budget (which we are) and we might not be able to invite everyone we like. She understood so I was very lucky there. Because there are some people whom I haven't invited who I'd like to. And so begins a whole dilemma... Who gets priority? Someone you've known longer or someone you're closer to? What if they were practically your best friend but now they weren't? What if you've been to their wedding? Does that mean you should automatically invite them? I have to invite some of Shane's friends, but what if they're single? I can add a 'Plus One' but what if they're a total git? And so it begins...

So Shane and I are engaged. Ta da. Simple enough. Our friends Clare and Dags have been together for nearly 20 years, have 2 teenage boys and they aren't married, they've totally lost interest in it. But I'm glad we're doing it. I want to be a McLean too and show the world that I am committed to Shane and he should be committed, ha ha, no, that he is committed to me. One night I said to him, you know this isn't just a thing, this means we are gonna be married and it's forever okay? That's it, it's going to be for the rest of our lives, okay? 'Oh yeah!', he said, 'Of course it is!' What a darling...